Do you ever have days where you just think
WHAT AM I DOING?!
Well, I’m having one of those days.
I’ve been sitting in front of my computer screen most of the morning trying and trying to come up with something brilliant for my writing projects (outside of this blog). And I just can’t… I keep looking for inspiration, hoping that something will come to me, but nothing…
It’s times like these we tend to ask ourselves in a very desperate tone, “What am I doing?” We start to question our decisions, our capabilities… everything. Sometimes these moments come after a motivation high or just after being stuck in a rut for a while. We set deadlines for ourselves or just have expectations that sometimes don’t end up going how we saw it going in our minds.
What the heck do we do about this?
Well, right now I’m trying to tell myself to STOP thinking these things and asking myself “What am I doing?” because it’s not a productive question or way of thinking. It will only bring me down and I’ll get sucked deeper into this pit of self destruction, because that’s what I tend to do. I tend to go deep in this dark hole of numbness and hiss at the daylight. It doesn’t do any good to keep nagging myself about things I know I need to get done, and get inspired about… I can’t just keep sitting here and try to force something that just isn’t coming. I have to really stop telling myself that I’m not good enough or asking “What am I doing?” in a way that implies that I’m not good enough. What I need to do is focus on something else. Something else that is productive and keeps my creative brain going and keeps my thoughts from turning dark on me. As I say this, I can see the dirty dishes out of the corner of my eye… “Cool your jets, Dishes, I’ll get to you later.” I chose to write this blog to help myself refocus on something else other than not being able to get inspired for this other project today. Honestly, this blog is somewhat of a reflection of what I’m needing to hear right now and hopefully it’s what someone else needs to hear too. I’m choosing to be active in conquering my mindset at the moment, take a stand and get something else productive done!
So, here’s what I’m getting at. Is we really need to shift our mindset when we get into these moments. Let’s move onto something else that is productive and we can keep our brain active instead of letting “What am I doing?” take over our minds. These thoughts will always come up, we will always be asking ourselves, “What am I doing?”. But we push through it and recognize that this will pass, we will be motivated and productive again. There is a healthy self reflection that we all need to have, but this isn’t the healthy kind of “What am I doing?”. The longer we let this mindset control our thoughts, the longer we won’t be productive. Inspiration will never come if we’re stuck thinking that we’re not good enough or asking the question in a doubting our abilities kind of way.
We just need to stop, breathe, take a moment and keep moving forward.